Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
My brother Shane has made my life worth living. People talk about soul mates in a romantic way, but for me, it’s different. My younger brother, Shane, is absolutely my soul mate. Our souls connect in way, so deep, that I could probably never begin to explain it.
Any time, I have ever felt like giving up or throwing the towel in, I think about Shane. I think about where he’d be, where he’d end up, what would happen to him. I could never leave him. Shane and I always joke that we were twins, but I hogged all the room so he stayed in my mom an extra 3 years, cookin’. We are that much alike. We laugh the same, act the same (bitchy;) ), have the same mannerisms.
So, Shane thank you for making my life worth living. For being my best friend, my man (can we even say that?) of honor, my personal fashion police, my wing man (again..), my partner in crime…my soul mate<3
And, I leave you with our song.
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...
You never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall...
Your never gonna be alone!
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes...
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
You never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world on,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
Remember when we danced to this at my wedding...I love you.
Monday, October 18, 2010
{Life} Day 6 of 30 Truths
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
I hope I never have to bury my immediate family. I know it may one day be inevitable, as the world works, it is natural for children to bury their parents, but honestly, the thought makes me really sad. And I really desperately hope to never have to bury either one of my brothers. I’d rather go with ‘em…
I hope I never have to bury my immediate family. I know it may one day be inevitable, as the world works, it is natural for children to bury their parents, but honestly, the thought makes me really sad. And I really desperately hope to never have to bury either one of my brothers. I’d rather go with ‘em…
{Life} Today
Today sucks.
Here I am on
The phone again and
Awkward silence is
On the other end
I used to know
The sound of a smile
In your voice
But right now
All I feel
Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers
But I don't want that
No not for you
If you just stay with me
We can make it through
So here we are again
Same old arguement
And now I'm wondering
If things'll ever change, yeah
When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We made noise till 3 am
And the neighbors would complain
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Here I am on
The phone again and
Awkward silence is
On the other end
I used to know
The sound of a smile
In your voice
But right now
All I feel
Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers
But I don't want that
No not for you
If you just stay with me
We can make it through
So here we are again
Same old arguement
And now I'm wondering
If things'll ever change, yeah
When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We made noise till 3 am
And the neighbors would complain
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)
Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Thursday, October 14, 2010
{Life} Day 5 of 30 Truths
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
I hope to one day become a mother. I have always felt like I was destined to be a mother. To nurture and feel a little human being growing inside of me, would mean more to me then anything in the world.
I know when the time is right, and the stars align, it will happen for me. Until then, I will cautiously pick out nursery furniture ;).
I hope to one day become a mother. I have always felt like I was destined to be a mother. To nurture and feel a little human being growing inside of me, would mean more to me then anything in the world.
I know when the time is right, and the stars align, it will happen for me. Until then, I will cautiously pick out nursery furniture ;).
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
{Life} Day 4 of 30 Truths
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Without going in too much detail (because I'm not ready yet, and I can't force myself to be ready for the sake of this blog), I'm going to forgive a man in my past for being inappropriate towards me. I am going to forgive him not for him, but for me. So that I can breathe easy, and begin to move on. I am no longer going to wallow in it. I cannot let it shape me, be the reason why I do things, or control my life. I am going to forgive him, a little now, and a little more down the road. All I know is I do have to forgive him if I want a chance to be happy, and right now, with all my new beginnings, I really feel like I deserve that.
Without going in too much detail (because I'm not ready yet, and I can't force myself to be ready for the sake of this blog), I'm going to forgive a man in my past for being inappropriate towards me. I am going to forgive him not for him, but for me. So that I can breathe easy, and begin to move on. I am no longer going to wallow in it. I cannot let it shape me, be the reason why I do things, or control my life. I am going to forgive him, a little now, and a little more down the road. All I know is I do have to forgive him if I want a chance to be happy, and right now, with all my new beginnings, I really feel like I deserve that.
{Fashion} Outfit of the Day
I originally started this blog to do OOTD's but then quickly realized a few things..a)I had no one to take pictures of me b) I only had the camera on my blackberry which is not of good quality..and c) my outfits..aren't that great. Oh well! Here is my first OOTD..FINALLY!
Tank-Old Navy ribbed tank with lace trim
Cardi-Old Navy Rosette Cardi in heather grey
Belt-Leila Rowe
Skirt-Express circa 2006! Black, dark & light grey pattern (cannot see the pattern in this picture)
Shoes-Avenue Cloud walkers, LOVE these..so comfortable.
Earrings-Swarovski crystal balls
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
{Life} Day 3 of 30 Truths
So, while today is, ohhh day 5 in actuality, not having a computer at home has been a teeny tiny bump in the road. Oh well, at least I've gotten this far, no?
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for
I have decided (right now) that I am going to forgive myself for my failed marriage. I have gone over every scenario and every situation of the last five years, wondering where I went wrong, or what I could've (should've?) done different. I come to the same conclusion every time-although I played a role in the demise of my marriage, it was inevitable from day one.
No matter what I did, or didn't do for that matter, my marriage was doomed. I missed all the signs. Ok, ok, I didn't miss the signs...I ignored them. But this is about forgiving myself right? If I go through every situation again and again in my head, until I literally go insane, I will still end up in the same place as I am now. Nothing I say, do or don't do will change the outcome. And I am finally okay with that.
I need to forgive myself for putting my safety at risk. I need to forgive myself for hiding my voice, in order to let another be heard. I need to forgive myself for not loving myself, and for not putting myself first. I need to forgive myself for not respecting myself. For putting someone else's needs before my own. Above all, I need to forgive my self for the whole damned thing, in order to not feel ashamed, or feel like I need to rock a scarlet letter.
It's going to be a long road, a road full of tears, and 'why?''s, and many, many turns. I am really going to work on forgiving myself while making changes in myself so that I don't make the same mistakes again.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for
I have decided (right now) that I am going to forgive myself for my failed marriage. I have gone over every scenario and every situation of the last five years, wondering where I went wrong, or what I could've (should've?) done different. I come to the same conclusion every time-although I played a role in the demise of my marriage, it was inevitable from day one.
No matter what I did, or didn't do for that matter, my marriage was doomed. I missed all the signs. Ok, ok, I didn't miss the signs...I ignored them. But this is about forgiving myself right? If I go through every situation again and again in my head, until I literally go insane, I will still end up in the same place as I am now. Nothing I say, do or don't do will change the outcome. And I am finally okay with that.
I need to forgive myself for putting my safety at risk. I need to forgive myself for hiding my voice, in order to let another be heard. I need to forgive myself for not loving myself, and for not putting myself first. I need to forgive myself for not respecting myself. For putting someone else's needs before my own. Above all, I need to forgive my self for the whole damned thing, in order to not feel ashamed, or feel like I need to rock a scarlet letter.
It's going to be a long road, a road full of tears, and 'why?''s, and many, many turns. I am really going to work on forgiving myself while making changes in myself so that I don't make the same mistakes again.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
{Life} Day 2 of 30 Truths
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Can I make a bullet list? Or do I have to just pick one thing and run with it? I'm actually down on myself today, so this question is annoying me at this moment.
I love my hair. I've always loved my hair..when it comes to decisions in regards to me hair, I do not make them lightly.
BUUUUT, on a more serious note, I would have to say..I Love my sense of humor. My sense of humor has gotten me through so much in my life, and without it, I'm pretty sure I would be worse for the wear. My sense of humor has gotten me through breakups (I'd count how many, but then I'd need to borrow your hands..), it has gotten me through deaths, through boredeom, through school, and through work everyday. It has brought me closer to my friends, and to my family. It has also gotten me in trouble, but I still love it.
Can I make a bullet list? Or do I have to just pick one thing and run with it? I'm actually down on myself today, so this question is annoying me at this moment.
I love my hair. I've always loved my hair..when it comes to decisions in regards to me hair, I do not make them lightly.
BUUUUT, on a more serious note, I would have to say..I Love my sense of humor. My sense of humor has gotten me through so much in my life, and without it, I'm pretty sure I would be worse for the wear. My sense of humor has gotten me through breakups (I'd count how many, but then I'd need to borrow your hands..), it has gotten me through deaths, through boredeom, through school, and through work everyday. It has brought me closer to my friends, and to my family. It has also gotten me in trouble, but I still love it.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
{Life} Day 1 of 30 Truths
Here goes nothing..
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
I hate my inability to trust. Once upon time, you could've told me that the earth was flat, and I would've believed you. I trusted everything everyone ever said to me. Why not, right? These days, however? If you tell me I look good in this sweater, I'm already wondering why you're saying that before you can even finish the sentence.
I know everyone has been hurt, everyone has had their heart broken (& if you haven't, I REALLY don't trust you) but it doesn't make it any easier when it happens to you. So many changes are occuring in my life right now, all the things that I believed to be true, aren't. All the truths I've heard, are lies.
I'm trying really hard to believe that people can be trusted. People mean what they say, and say what they mean. I know it is a long road that is ahead of me, and one day I am going to have to trust again. I'm a work in progress.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
I hate my inability to trust. Once upon time, you could've told me that the earth was flat, and I would've believed you. I trusted everything everyone ever said to me. Why not, right? These days, however? If you tell me I look good in this sweater, I'm already wondering why you're saying that before you can even finish the sentence.
I know everyone has been hurt, everyone has had their heart broken (& if you haven't, I REALLY don't trust you) but it doesn't make it any easier when it happens to you. So many changes are occuring in my life right now, all the things that I believed to be true, aren't. All the truths I've heard, are lies.
I'm trying really hard to believe that people can be trusted. People mean what they say, and say what they mean. I know it is a long road that is ahead of me, and one day I am going to have to trust again. I'm a work in progress.
{Life} 30 Days of Truth
So, I stumbled across a blog today, called Spontaneously Us, where the author is answering questions each day,it is called 30 days of truth. I've seen something like this on other blogs, and I actually used to do something like this in my journal. I really liked her answers and she made me want to give it a try. It will also help me to keep blogging since CLEARLY, I suck. So, Thank You Kasi! Check out her blog! http://kasiworld.blogspot.com/, its awesome. And if nothing else, cute pictures of babies and puppies are ALWAYS a plus!
Here are the questions:
30 Days of Truths
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
So, here goes nothing! Lets see if I can go 30 days straight of blogging! I have a feeling this may take me about 40 days to complete but I really, really, want to do it in the 30!
Here are the questions:
30 Days of Truths
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
So, here goes nothing! Lets see if I can go 30 days straight of blogging! I have a feeling this may take me about 40 days to complete but I really, really, want to do it in the 30!
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